As I lay awake at night,
I think about the day that just went by,
Wondering if I could have changed anything to make it better.
I think about my future,
What I can do to reach my dreams,
How to achieve them,
If I have what it takes,
And if I'm on the right path in life.
I think about my past,
All the people I've met,
Who I've liked and disliked,
My family and friends,
How I grew up,
And what I've accomplished.
I think about what's really important to me,
My morals and values
I think of how the world works,
And I how i would change it if I could.
I think of what I've been through,
And how I feel.
At the end of the day
I think about who I am.
~Eva Doty
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I love the poem above! Its so true! I think about people who have come and gone in my 21 years of life, like the changing of the seasons. And not gonna lie, there are definitely days where I wish I hadn't met some of those people, the people that put dark colors on my canvas. But if it wasn't for those people as well as the good people who care about me, then it wouldn't make the brighter colors stand out, and then I wouldn't be who I am today. I wouldn't have the same strong beliefs and convictions if certain life events hadn't happened. If certain people hadn't crossed paths with me.
I would like to thank my Mom for having the biggest part of me; for loving me and putting up with me even on days when I'm just downright mean to her. I wouldn't be where I am now without her and I don't tell her enough how much I still need her. Love you like a circle!
I think about my past too often. Playing the What if game. For the last several years I would definitely say I'm a half empty person, way more negative than I should be. Leading lots of people to think I'm this super cheery & hopeful person, when in reality, I feel far from that a lot of days.
And my goal starting in 2014 and going on, was to start thinking in a "half full" mindset and to live my life to the fullest! Dreaming big and not being afraid of what the future holds for me.
Watching the video below makes me so excited about my future! About all the exciting things God has in store for me! (Doesn't it make you want to get up and do something?? Ive been obsessed with this song ever since my brother showed me this video. **and sorry for a word in the song,)
I'm learning to accept and believe in myself, which I think that can only happen as we age.
I'm learning to forgive people who judge me for my wildly colored hair, my ever changing modest fashions, my piercings, My love for Jesus, and my strong/ different world views. I'm learning to be true to myself and not to please everyone. I still have my bad days where I'm super negative, but with God, my family and close friends, I'm doing better.
So huge thank you to my family, my close friends and all you wonderful facebook friends for writing nice things on my birthday. I love and care for you all!!
p.s. check out my cool titanic cake!!! Make by my LSBDSister who is gonna be the next great cake baker
And to end this post, I'll leave yall with another inspiring & positive songs lol (One of my all time faves, and a great theme song for us all.) Since my awesome other mother, Mrs.Laurel got me Katy Perry tickets!!!! THANK YOU!!!!! LOVE YA!!!!!
So remember your all fireworks and let your colors burst!!
Thanks again to everyone who helped make my 21st birthday my best one ever, love my family and friends for driving to see me and hang out with on my 21st bday!
21 wishes, prayers and lots of love, KayLeigh
P>S> Skillet Saturdays will start back soon! Promise! :)
