This Is Who I am, 21 B-Day, Bright Future

This is Who I Am  

As I lay awake at night,
I think about the day that just went by,
Wondering if I could have changed anything to make it better.

I think about my future,
What I can do to reach my dreams,
How to achieve them, 
If I have what it takes,
And if I'm on the right path in life.

I think about my past,
All the people I've met,
Who I've liked and disliked,
My family and friends,
How I grew up,
And what I've accomplished.

I think about what's really important to me,
 My morals and values

I think of how the world works,
And I how i would change it if I could.

I think of what I've been through,
And how I feel.

At the end of the day
I think about who I am. 

~Eva Doty

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I love the poem above!  Its so true! I think about people who have come and gone in my 21 years of life,  like the changing of the seasons.  And not gonna lie, there are definitely days where I wish I hadn't met some of those people, the people that put dark colors on my canvas. But if it wasn't for those people as well as the good people who care about me, then it wouldn't make the brighter colors stand out, and  then I wouldn't be who I am today.  I wouldn't have the same strong beliefs and convictions if certain life events hadn't happened.  If certain people hadn't crossed paths with me.

   I would like to thank my Mom for having the biggest part of me;   for loving me and putting up with me even on days when I'm just downright mean to her.    I wouldn't be where I am now without her and I don't tell her enough how much I still need her.   Love you like a circle!

I think about my past too often.  Playing the What if game.  For the last several years I would definitely say I'm a half empty person, way more negative than I should be.  Leading lots of people to think I'm this super cheery & hopeful person,  when in reality, I feel far from that a lot of days.

And my  goal  starting in 2014 and going on, was to start thinking in a "half full" mindset and to live my life to the fullest! Dreaming big and not being afraid of what the future holds for me.

Watching the video below makes me so excited about my future! About all the exciting things God has in store for me!  (Doesn't it make you want to get up and do something?? Ive been  obsessed with this song ever since my brother showed me this video.    **and sorry for a word in the song,)

I'm learning to accept and believe in myself, which I think that can only happen as we age.

   I'm learning to forgive people who judge me for my wildly colored hair, my ever changing modest fashions,  my piercings, My love for Jesus, and  my strong/ different world views.   I'm learning to be true to myself and not to please everyone.   I still have my bad days where I'm super negative, but with God, my family and close friends, I'm doing better.

So huge thank you  to my family, my close friends and all you wonderful facebook friends for writing nice things on my birthday.  I love and care for you all!!

p.s. check out my cool titanic cake!!! Make by my LSBDSister who is gonna be the next great cake baker

And to end this post, I'll leave yall with another inspiring &  positive songs lol   (One of my all time faves, and a great theme song for us all.)  Since my awesome other mother, Mrs.Laurel got me Katy Perry tickets!!!!   THANK YOU!!!!!  LOVE YA!!!!!

So remember your all fireworks and let your colors burst!!

Thanks again to everyone who helped make my 21st birthday my best one ever, love my family and friends for driving to see me and hang out with on my 21st bday!

21 wishes, prayers and lots of love, KayLeigh

P>S>  Skillet Saturdays will start back soon! Promise! :)

The Loveliest/Most Awesome Things (New Inspired Series)

The Lipstick Gospel is one of my favorite blogs. Every Friday for the few months I've been reading her blog she had this series  called "the Loveliest things" where people share 5 lovely things. It helps remind us to see the beauty in the world. Lovely things can be anything.  So I want to start my own series! I'm still trying to decide another name for this lol so if you have any suggestions please let me know! (The most Awesome things?)  I'll go first-- would love to share your loveliest/most awesome things.

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1. Starry Nights -  There is something so incredible when looking up into the dark sky to see billions of stars twinkling. And the occasional airplane (or could they be UFOs???) flying by.  You wonder what all is out there... you  dream of going and flying among the stars. I've always wanted to see a star up close.

2. Road Trips -  I love how we can remember more about what happened while we were traveling to a place than what actually happened while we were there.  All the amazing and super funny memories that are made with our traveling companions; whether they be family or friends.  You always find out more about people on road trips. Getting there is half the fun :)  "It's not about destination, its about the journey."

3. The Color Blue - Blue is my #1 favorite color. Blue has always been my color.  I even have blue streaks in my hair lol.  What can i say, I love blue. All shades, especial aqua blue or dark heart of the ocean blue. Blue is one of those shades that can scream anything from spring to winter, happy to sad, skies or oceans.

4. Smiles -  "Your never fully dressed without a smile!"   Can I just say this kitten is sooooo adorable!!! Ok lol. Smiles. They're a free facelift for your face as one of my beauty guru's say. Smiling is an amazing way to cheer up someone.  You never know who is loving your smile. I often get called smiley because of how often I smile :)

5.  Birthdays -  That wonderful day were we celebrate turning another year older (and hopefully another year wiser lol)  That special day where we celebrate someone's life.  And who doesn't love cake and ice-cream!! Including balloons and sometimes birthday spankings' hahaha.

Happy 18th Birthday (Yesterday) to my awesome friend Jacob!! He's truly a one-of-a-kind laid back dude that I'm so glad to call my friend.  Glad I got to celebrate with him! =D

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 Thanks so much for reading this post-- Love, KayLeigh

 Check out the blog that I'm doing a spin-off series of!
http://thelipstickgospel.com/

Happy New Year & Happy Friday!

Happy New Year!!! 
And Happy Friday everybody!

 Its a new year. Time to make changes.  Time to clean out your closet. (That was me today.) Donating old clothes to make room for the new fashions that will come in 2013.  A time for fresh starts.

I want to say that I'm sorry for not posting anything in a few months. My goal for this new year is to post something at least once a week. And to go from there. Lets say Life happened. As it does to everyone.  We all have scene changes. New chapters are written. Friends come and go like the seasons. Good and bad. Welcome, or unwelcome.  Things in life happen.

To those of you who don't know, my family went through the loss of my sweet Aunt Shelly early December.  She was battling cancer and with it beaten, has gone to be with Jesus. Where there's no more pain and she isn't suffering anymore.  She has her J-Lo body that she always wanted and she's singing Him sweet praises. Its been hard on my entire family. We have all been filled with questions of why her? She was a wife and mother to four beautiful children. She was young. While we missed her a great deal during the holidays we know she is in a better place.  Please continue to pray for my Uncle and their four kids as well as the rest of my family.

 I also want to say I'm super excited for this new year.  Have lots of great posts I'm working on for you guys, yay! With that said, Happy Friday everybody and have a great weekend! And check me out next week for a new post.

 Huge thank you to my family, friends, coworkers, and  supporters.   I appreciate your prayers, love, and everything else you all have done for me.  I pray for you all as this new year starts. And may it be your best year yet.

~Love and Blessings, KayLeigh