This worship Wednesday fits good with this upcoming Saturdays post. Hope ya enjoy :)
Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) Hillsong cover by Sarah Reeves (Link Below)
http://youtu.be/Jhf6XHvMHqE
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We've been singing this song "Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) - by Hillsong at church for several weeks now. The more I hear it, and the more I listen to the lyrics, the more they become my prayer.
We all want that amazing faith based relationship with God, yet there's not many of us that actually go after it. When He tells us to jump off the cliff into the deep dark swirling waters, we often hesitate. We look down too long and end up freaking ourselves out. The voices in our head are shouting
don't jump! Look how far down that is! DO you know how cold that water is? Its so dark. What If I don't resurface? What if I drown because I'm fighting to hard against the current? What if?
We all have times in our lives where like Jonah from the bible (Jonah and the whale/fish, you've probably heard of him if you've spent any time in church.) we try and run from God. We run from places we're supposed to go, we put off events we're supposed to do, we push away people that are supposed to be in our lives. Jonah didn't trust God enough to go to Ninevah and preach the gospel, he didn't trust that God knew what he was doing.
Are you sure you want me to go there God? I think those crazy people in Ninevah are kinda a lost cause. #justsaying
"You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand"
Two years ago I started teaching a group of middle school aged girls on Wednesday nights, (which I still teach today). When my youth pastor asked me to teach them, I told him he was crazy. I wasn't and I'm still not the best christian or godly person around. I said I wasn't the best person for the job. But he told me I had a big caring heart and I loved God. He said that's all you need. God will give you the words to say, if you just let him use you.
And like Jonah, I put off teaching for awhile, even though I knew that's what God wanted me to do. I didn't want to be a leader. What If I lead them the wrong way, or couldn't answer their tough questions.
I remember my time in the belly of the whale, it wasn't fun. We all have those icky moments in between running from God and having a brick wall thrown in front of us. The God prompts. I remember the moment inside my whale where I finally told God I would let him use me to teach and love this group of girls.
"And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine"
Someone told me God doesn't call the equipped, He calls those who are unequipped so that they have to rely on Him. And its so true. I love all my girls. I can't picture myself not being their leader and friend. Watching them grow the last two years, and me growing right along with them. There have definitely been periods of time where I wanted to pull my hair out and wonder what the heck I was even doing. Especially when I was asked hard questions that I didn't have good answers to. Times where I was extremely selfish (more recently the last few months) and wanted to leave and move on (Like Jonah). I have often felt way to inexperienced to be their leader. But God is still working on me. God has shown me recently that I'm just what they need. They need someone who shows them on a daily basis that I'm far from perfect but that I still strive to be a good Godly person. They need someone to listen to them pour their hearts out, and someone to love them. In a million years I wouldn't have picked myself to teach them, But I'm glad God and many others saw what I didn't see in myself at the time. I'm so glad God loves them 1000 times more than I ever could...
"Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now"
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And this is my prayer....
"Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior"
My Beautiful Girls <3
God, Thank you for everything you have been showing me lately. (Especially the things I didn't appreciate at first.) Be with all my beautiful girls and help me continue to lead them onto your path. My faith is being made stronger the more I teach them. Thank you Jesus for being our Savior. For saving me. I love you. And I love those girls.
When you pray prayers like that, that's when the Devil throws crap at you to slow you down. And I'm sorry to say I've been slowed down. That I've felt defeated lately. So keep me and my girls in your prayers. I would greatly appreciate it.
~KayLeigh
P.s. Check out Jonahs story in : Jonah Chpt. 1. starting in verse 1 -
"Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)"
You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand
And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine
Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now
So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
[x6]
I will call upon Your Name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine
