One of my goals this year has been to have a more positive look on life, and especially in my relationships. Not going to lie, its super easy to complain and be negative about people when they let you down (and continue to let you down). I also think we don't do a good job on thanking these people for all they do for us. Especially when we're not at our best. Or simply thanking someone for being there for us when we needed them.
Early in December of 2013, I lost someone very dear to me. When I found out she was gone, I was sad. I'm still sad. I was in shock thinking she can't be gone. There's still so much I want to tell her. So much I should have told her. I'd go and sit with her and we would drink our sprites and talk about all the worlds problems. Or my worlds problems. I'd tell her everything. Tell her my dreams, tell her the funny things. Tell her the sad and confusing things. She didn't always have a reply, but she always listened. I told her and God all the time how much I wanted a true friend who would do for me what I would do for them. I didn't realize until after she was gone, that she was my best friend. She was one of the people I thanked God for, not often enough, for helping me keep my head on straight. Especially when I didn't want too.
I'm so thankful for the number of years she was in my life. I knew she always thought it was a treat for her to have me over, but in all honesty, I feel like I got the better end of our deal. Being able to just listen to her give me the advice of 70 plus years or even just to feel her big hugs hold me so tight. I love her.
The first few times I went to her resting site right after her going to be with Jesus, I probably cried and screamed until I was horse and my face swollen from crying so hard. But God wrapped His arms around me and gave me peace! He hit me with lyrics from most beautiful worship song. One that we sometimes sing in my small group (7:02) on Tuesday nights. I sang this song out loud over and over. More peace washing over me each time I sang it.
(Song below with Lyrics)
I'm so thankful to my group 7:02 for giving me that song.
Its taken me over a year to write this post. To get through writing or rereading any of this without having a huge meltdown. But what made me decide to finish this post is because I needed reminding of things I'm thankful for. I need reminding of how good God is to me.
SoThis Thankful series with take place on Tuesdays or Thursdays, or maybe both days. But I look forward to sharing people and things I'm thankful for. And I also plan on finishing the Skillet Rise inspired posts too. So thank you for being patient with me, for those who even take the time to still read the few things I do post every now and then, it means alot to me. And I give you a big thanks :)
KayLeigh
